Sunday, May 9, 2010

Waiting... but I WILL move ahead, bold and confident

So, it seems that my drive to church lately has become a very emotional time for me :) It's a VERY pretty drive, but it takes about 30 minutes!

(I know. You think living in a very populated area just over the river from DC would have a chapel closer to me. Yes, that is true. One about 7 minutes away. But, I'm "special". Since I am still single I get the pleasure of traveling a bit farther to church to be with other singles :) I can't complain though, it is a beautiful chapel that looks out on the Potomac River and very near Mt. Vernon. Beautiful!!)

ANYWAY, great time to think and ponder and enjoy the beauty of nature along the drive! Usually I turn the radio off, but for some reason I didn't think to do it today as I was leaving. As usual, I had my christian music station on and my thoughts were elsewhere for a few moments. But then I tuned into the interview they were having with John Waller, a christian music artist, as he was talking about what inspired his song "While I'm Waiting".

He dreamed of becoming a Christian music artist from the time he was a teenager. But, it took about 17 years! After 15 years of doing trying, he put it to the side and became a pastor of a church, but then started writing songs for his congregation. He created an album and sent it to some record companies.

"Then, nothing happened for six months. So, I was getting to the place where I was discouraged and I began asking myself had I done this for nothing. A friend of mine called me and I was struggling. I had literally been in tears, waiting and trusting. He said, “You need to write about that. People are waiting on God all the time. People can really relate to that.” And I wrote "While I am Waiting” in about ten minutes. It took ten minutes to write and 17 years to live though."

Inspiring story for me!
17 years... that's a long time!

His focus in his music is to really start trusting in the Lord and let go and say, "Alright, this is a life of faith. This is a life where I have to trust God. And He is trustworthy."

Okay - I was hooked and tuned in as the song started.

Wow!!! Personally, this is where I feel I am at MOST of the time in my life, but especially right now as I look at my next few months. MANY changes, including definite job loss and many "secure comforts" for me will be gone or shaken up. There are also, a few very specific, righteous desires of my heart that I am, and have been, "waiting on God for", for what I think is a LONG TIME!!!!

And, yesterday was a day when, let's just say, my trust, faith, hope and patience were not at the level they should have been. Doubt and discouragement get the best of me sometimes. But, I feel like a prayer was answered in this song this morning as the power of its words brought me to tears and a small meltdown as I was driving. Fortunately, I was by myself in the car!

Lyrics for "While I'm waiting"

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

In my life, I am waiting. I am hopeful, but YES, sometimes it is PAINFUL. I do, at times, feel like I am running a race not knowing where the next water station is or what big hill is around the bend. But, I do my best to try and move forward "bold and confident", in obedience, while trying not to crumble and faint.

Fortunately, God has blessed me with feelings of PEACE providing quiet moments of reassurance in knowing I am doing what's right for the moment and that gives me the strength to go that next mile... not knowing what it will bring! This song was an answer to prayer for me this morning and gave me peace in knowing that God is AWARE of my righteous, heartfelt desires and that I need to regain my level of trust and patience in waiting. I know, without a doubt, that God's plan for my life is better than I could ever imagine and that I need to wait...

HE hasn't failed me yet... why would he start now?

Here's the music video!!

John Waller - While I'm Waiting (Official Music Video) from Provident Label Group on Vimeo.

1 comment:

Emma said...

I like it. Isn't it wonderful how good music can speak to our souls and even answer prayers? Thanks for sharing.